I'd wait for life

I don't know how you are
or how you may be
but I know I love you still

Soundless

My day is your night
It's the difference in the time zone
Spare me the never-ending jet lag
It aches my heart right to the core

We're one thousand light years apart
When one step closer's taken
one heart's gonna get broken

This frown you cause
will never fade away
What a frustration!
Of all the lessons learned
the numbers will never fit in your formula

The red sky is raining
endlessly
But still, unseen
'cause you're inside the building


- Ainina Rosman

Awak oh awak

Kepada awak, saya tahu awak tak baca pun blog saya.

Sebab saya jarang nampak IP address awak dekat Feedjit. Haha.

Terima kasih. Awak takkan tahu betapa saya menghargai awak.

Awaklah antara orang yang boleh buat saya ketawa di kala saya menangis.

Walaupun dah lama saya tak bersua dengan awak, saya rasa awak dekat dengan saya.

Semoga awak selalu disayangi-Nya.

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Kepada awak, terima kasih.

Saya suka pokpek pokpek dekat awak kan.

Awak saje yang sudi mendengar.

Saya tahu awak saje yang faham.

Tak apa, saya dah belanja banyak biskut dan aiskrim kan. Haha.

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Kepada awak, saya cemburu dengan awak sebab awak dapat pergi sana.

Saya doakan keselamatan awak.

Saya sayangkan awak. Jaga diri baik-baik.

Nanti saya kirim list doa ye!

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Kepada awak berdua, saya tahu saya jarang contact awak dan awak.

Saya cuma nak awak tahu, awak berdua tetap di hati saya.

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Akhirnya, kepada awak yang sedang membaca ni, yang namanya tak tersebut di atas.

Terima kasih kerana sudi membaca blog yang tak seberapa ni.

Saya bukan penglipur lara, juga tidak pandai menulis dengan penuh kasih sayang.

Saya, emo dan hati kering. Haha.

Terima kasih, dan maafkan saya andai saya pernah buat awak kecil hati dengan apa yang saya pernah pos di blog ini.

Semoga awak dirahmati Allah sentiasa!

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Eugene Onegin

One of the prose novels I'm studying for Literature in Translation this semester. (pronounce: Yu-jin O-ni-ye-gen) I love literature, though I might not be that good (hawhaw, pessimist ok). In fact I love any language-related and music subjects. I wonder why I'd chosen Actuarial Science instead...

Anyways... the hero is Eugene.

Eugene is a slave to the social convention. That is, he's kind of afraid of what people might think of him whenever he does something. Therefore in order to not go against the neighbours, he would do whatever he thought that the public will accept, though all those people are merely those kind of "cakap belakang" people.

Eugene easily gets bored with things. He's not a genius whatsoever, but he's got the ability to charm people (especially women) with the way he talks and with the words he chooses to say. He's witty, he's flirtatious, and he knows how to get along with other people.

One day this guy went to a ball organized by a rich family, and one of the daughters, Tatyana fell in love with him. Tatyana is different from her sister Olga, who was sociable and outgoing. Tatyana was rather reserved and preferred reading romantic novels than flirting. She might not have any idea how being in love really feels, so it's a new thing for her to fall for someone. But she liked Eugene not because of who he is, or how he looks, or how he flirts.

Do you know exactly why she did?

It's merely because of the social convention.

The neighbours were sort of gossiping that Eugene is going to get engaged with Tatyana. Tatyana heard the hearsay, and instantly, liked him. Tatyana who came from a high-class background, risked her status by writing him a love letter, confessing her feelings and of course, hoping that Eugene would return her love.

But Eugene, of course, did not love her.

The unique thing about Tatyana being in love is that, she didn't exactly love Eugene. She was only falling for LOVE. That is, she was in love with the images of how she wanted Eugene to be, NOT with the man himself.

Macam kitalah. Kalau kita suka seseorang, semua pasal orang yang kita suka tu adalah baik.

Two lessons from the story:

1. Jangan buat cerita/fitnah pasal orang because you will never know how your WORDS can affect other people that bad. Sebab tu dalam Islam dosa fitnah tu lebih besar dari membunuh, because you won't have any idea how big your words are going to be.

2. Infatuation is merely infatuation. Even if you're going to marry that person, you'll never know them until you, well, get married. Sebab tu dalam Islam ada cara yang betul supaya kau boleh kenal seseorang tu sebelum kau kahwin dengan dia (merisik etc.). And please note that kalau setakat tanya ahli keluarga orang tu je belum tentu keluarga tu betul-betul boleh beri respon yang tepat. Sebabnya kebanyakan orang dengan family perangai lain, dengan bukan family lain pulak.

Tapi, kalau dah suka orang tu, nak buat macam mana kan. *tersenyum sinis* Love is not blind but love can blind you.

Haha. Garang gila. WHATEVER.

Tak tahu kenapa tiba-tiba nak tulis pasal ni. But I think it's been quite a while since I posted garang posts on this blog, harharhar.

Oh come on, you should think twice before reading the whole post!

I'm already there

I always want you to be there for me

yet I'm always scared of the fact that you are always there for me.

I miss you, you know

Dah lama tak emo kat blog pasal "saya homesick".

Dah lama tak merengek "saya nak balik".

Dah lama tak bergosip sakan "haa nak tahu tak".

Tiba-tiba... saya rindu.

Bunyi macam klise, tapi bila saya lihat wajahnya, saya terlupa kekusutan yang melanda fikiran.

Hebatnya cinta.

Cinta kerana-Nya.



PS: tiba-tiba teringin nak makan nasi lemak

Safe

Hard to find a way to get through
It’s a tragedy
Pulling at me like the stars do
You’re like gravity


PS: Oh yeah it's an ORIGINAL song finally, hahaha. xD