at the end of the day

please remind me over and over again that

if you give to people, God will give you more

and what you gave other people will not lessen what you have got

.

ya Allah

jauhkanlah aku dari merasa tidak cukup dengan nikmat-Mu

these days

back then

i saw you and i loved you

and now

i know you and i love you even more

huddle today

We were asked to pick a coin and tell about any memorable events on the year engraved on the coin.

I had 2014.

"I had my first date with my now fiance--"

I said, blushing,

"--but we were accompanied by his parents. Haha."

The reaction I got: that's a bit... um, ok.

Lol.

at the age of 25

There you go. So direct.

There used to be one point in my life where I would complain about everything and almost anything. All those petty little problems. Ok I lied. Not just one point. But several points.

Well I still have those petty little problems. The only difference is that I give less shit about them now.

Silver jubilee. I am twenty five. And by saying that it really makes me feel, well... grown up?

I used to think too much about what other people think of me. Anddd what other people are expecting of me. Anddd what other people would say if I make my own decision. Anddd the list goes on.

Growing up, growing older and wiser, I taught myself to give less and less shit about what others think of me.

And now I'm at this point where I just, honestly, want to be happy.

people rule

free coffee every day

paper-based performance

interesting cases to work on

free food now and then

surrounded by young people

no ass-kissing needed

proper training & introduction

opportunity to grow

good pay

super nice team leader

approachable seniors

super organized HR center

so near to home

feels like home

did i mention free coffee?

alhamdulillah wasyukurlillah

here and now

do you still remember

we let go of each other

we set each other free

believing that we'll cross the same path again if it's meant to be

9 years later

Time passes. 

Things change. 

People come and go. 

Sometimes things that happen too fast could be so overwhelming you could hardly feel your feet on the ground.

In this life, nothing is ever permanent. One moment you're on the top, but in the next few seconds you could be at the bottom of the wheel.

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To whom it may concern,

I'm sorry for what had happened. 

God has His own way of showing what's true and what isn't.

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To you,

Here we are 9 years later.

And no one has ever touched my life the way that you do.