9 years later

Time passes. 

Things change. 

People come and go. 

Sometimes things that happen too fast could be so overwhelming you could hardly feel your feet on the ground.

In this life, nothing is ever permanent. One moment you're on the top, but in the next few seconds you could be at the bottom of the wheel.

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To whom it may concern,

I'm sorry for what had happened. 

God has His own way of showing what's true and what isn't.

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To you,

Here we are 9 years later.

And no one has ever touched my life the way that you do.

overrated

i'm at this peak where i couldn't see any flaws

the world surrounding me would fade away when i look into those eyes

and i could still feel the presence lingers around me

people say it's overrated

but not for me, not at this point

not anymore

and then it hit me

I'm already at this point where I feel like I want to leave.

3 months ago I was scared of what's going to happen but now I just don't care anymore.

one step closer

when I look at you,

I remember why we could hold on to each other for so long

dear you

I'm unsure of how I'm feeling for the past week.

But all I'm certain about is my dua for you.

I hope Allah grants you strength to face it all.

I've tasted 5% of the despair years ago and I couldn't imagine how it's like for you.

Please know I want to be there for you no matter what.

From Allah we came and to Him we shall return.

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Hello.

You might not be reading this... but I'm so proud of you.

I've always been so proud of you.

apology

Have you ever did something really wrong and felt extremely guilty about it?

And then the person you pissed off can actually smile at you and still joke about it?

And then all you could see from them is that forgiving, loving smile and a simple "it's okay"?

Surreal, really.

knowing that

It's comforting to know that there's someone who cares for you.

Being in the middle of this unknown circle, I honestly feel safe knowing that there's still someone who would look after me.

I'm just this innocent, scared girl who seeks for shelter in every new places she goes to.

I've never asked for excessive attention though I love being taken care of.

It's obvious. It's just too obvious. Anyone around can actually see that.

I would be lying if I said I don't want to feel like I'm this... this somebody.

However, this attention I'm receiving... it confuses me.

:( + :) = :|

O Allah... I seek Your forgiveness.