If tomorrow never comes

Beribadahlah kamu seolah-olah kamu akan mati esok hari

Bekerjalah kamu seolah-olah kamu akan dapat gaji esok hari

Study lah kamu seolah-olah kamu akan final exam esok hari

Senyumlah kamu seolah-olah kamu akan kahwin esok hari

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Dan buatlah paper seolah-olah paper tu due esok hari

T_T

Let it shine

Don't you let your demons pull you down
'cause you can have it all
you can have it all

This second year, especially this semester, I've started to move with my own pace without any worries.

Instead of sitting there, regretting the mistakes and stupid things I've done before, I finally managed to pick up the courage and say hello to the positive world.

I am finally walking down the State Street with my head looking forward, not staring at my orange shoelace anymore.

I can finally move my mouth to say hello to other people, to ask them how they've been doing, and to let my voice be heard.

I no longer feel nervous going to places I've never been to before, and I no longer stutter whenever I need to meet new people.

And it's not like I'm great whatsoever.

It's just a matter of mindset.

Positiveness. Optimism. Self-assurance.

You don't have to be "budak pandai" to be positive. You don't have to get your name on the dean list to be optimistic.

It IS hard to change the way you view the world in a matter of days. It took me 21 years to finally realise that I can actually do this.

Really. I'm not a genius or smart or whatever.

All I've done is that I've stopped blaming myself. I've started to appreciate myself more than I've ever done before.

If things start to get serabut between me and other people, I'd stop, ponder on things for a moment, and try to do my part.

But when the other party is ignoring, or making things more complicated, I'm telling you:

I won't wait. I simply will not.

I'd do my part and move on.

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But you know what?

No matter how much I want to move on, some things don't change.

Or at least they haven't.

I still have some people that I've to take care of, even when I'm far away.

I still have my own responsibility towards some people who are hundreds miles away from me.

Many times I wish I can be there for them. Many times I wish I'm right there beside them.

Sometimes I wish those tears don't belong to them.

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Lately my posts are full of Take That's stuff. Can I just wish that Gary Barlow is my personal counselor? I'll let him sing to me and play the piano anytime he wants to. That'd make my days. Lolll. :P

So come on, so come on, get it on
Don't know what you're waiting for
Your time is coming, don't be late
Hey hey!

and that was all that happened anyhow

Berapa juta kali dah aku ulang ayat ni. Haha. Nasib la. :P

Tapi ni memang ayat favourite la buat masa ni.

You can look back...

Muhasabah diri. Belajar dari kesilapan. Tengok di mana kelemahan, di mana kekuatan. Apa yang membuatkan kita berjaya, apa yang membuatkan kita gagal.

Nak kenang masa lepas, boleh. Nak menyesali kesalahan lampau, boleh. Nak nilai balik apa yang dah berlalu, boleh.

...but don't stare.

Tapi, jangan disebabkan kesilapan semalam, kita asyik salahkan diri dan tak nak move on. Jangan terlalu kenang sangat masa lepas sampai affect masa future yang kita tak tahu rezeki kita sampai tahap mana.

Allah itu Maha Adil. Dia takkan beri kita ujian atau kesenangan tanpa ada sebab.

Tak ada manusia yang tak pernah down. Tak ada manusia yang gembira setiap saat. You're not alone.

Yesterday is a past. View your mistakes as a lesson today to have a better tomorrow.

If you don't make mistakes, you won't learn. If you don't feel pain, you won't be able to empathize with other people. If Allah gives you every single thing you ask for, you will never appreciate what you have.

Come on... move on, move on. Jangan kurung diri dalam peti (peti? apakah? haha).

Demi sesungguhnya! Kami akan menguji kamu dengan sedikit perasaan takut (kepada musuh) dan (dengan merasai) kelaparan, dan (dengan berlakunya) kekurangan dari harta benda dan jiwa serta hasil tanaman. Dan berilah khabar gembira kepada orang-orang yang sabar:

(Iaitu) orang-orang yang apabila mereka ditimpa oleh sesuatu kesusahan, mereka berkata: "Sesungguhnya kami adalah kepunyaan Allah dan kepada Allah jualah kami kembali."

Mereka itu ialah orang-orang yang dilimpahi dengan berbagai-bagai kebaikan dari Tuhan mereka serta rahmatNya; dan mereka itulah orang-orang yang dapat petunjuk hidayahNya.

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PS: This post is especially dedicated to myself.