The circus

Kadang-kadang rasa kelakar, tapi most of the time rasa annoying.

You know what, aku selalu nak guna alasan aku dah besar, aku dah 22 tahun. Alasan ni aku dah guna pakai berjuta kali dalam pos-pos aku sebelum ni.

Do you know why? It's because I can't keep pretending to not knowing anything.

Aku bukannya budak lagi, I can obviously notice what's going on around me. I'm not stupid.

I know there's nothing I can do. Nak masuk campur pun tak boleh. Which is why I chose to keep quiet.

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Sebenarnya aku boleh je usahakan benda tu.

Tapi aku rasa I need to take a break.

Because when you've completely lost trust in that person, you wouldn't want to repeat the same mistake by feeling sorry for them.

Deep inside dah takde rasa nak percaya lagi kat kau. Bila benda ni jadi, everything you do is fake to me.

There's no more forgive and forget left because you've been wasting way too many chances I gave you.

I've been saying this for so many times but still... I find it hard to believe in you again.

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As emo as this post might sound, I am actually extremely happy to be at home again.

Home is where the heart is.